in the little things I find my Father

11-5-11

Too often I spend life worrying about capturing the moments I think matter when truth would have it that the moments worth being captured come back to me without trying to think of them. Quite often out of nowhere I am overwhelmed by God and his provision. Blessings that I have experienced, without being aware of them at the time, are continually brought to the forefront of my mind. I sit at God’s feet seeing the extravagant things he has done, is doing, and wants to do in the world around me. The plans he has for me are all I need. I have been thinking about the word blessings quite often this last week. They are his way of showing me approval, special favor, and mercy. When I am in the wrong state of mind I want to plan and look out for myself to make sure I don’t miss out on life. God just wants me to open my eyes to him. In Ephesians 1:3 we are told, “All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ.”

God knows me so well. He knows how to comfort and encourage me so much better than I know how to seek and ask for Him. He is my source in everything. I feel confidence that is not explainable; I know he has promised that wherever life takes me that he will always take care of me and I believe it as fact. The feeling is like nothing else in this life. My confidence in him leads me to contentment. I am glad I don’t have to seek contentment in myself because that fight is lost before it even begins and that endless road is exhausting. I wish I could more clearly explain the way God makes me feel and the base of why I have such unwavering faith. Without warning at any given moment when I notice him he lifts my worry. He takes away my insecurity. He whispers reassurance into my thoughts. I feel like I hold a secret that the world cannot hear. When I look around I know my delight comes from within. I cannot imagine living a life without knowing he is present in each moment now and forever. He is more real to me than all the obligations and things I pour myself into in this life. He is logical and stirring to me. He is the most consentient part of my reality. He is authentic and loving. I am so thankful he pursues us because of this my life has joy that is not containable.