all things for the sake of the Gospel
Since I have been back I have experienced many emotions. Every time I am asked a question about my future that I cannot answer I feel a little bit of defeat. I interpret my lack of insight for a lack of communication between God and myself or a lack of obedience on my part. I take it very seriously revealing to others what God is doing in my life. God has put it on my heart to pray that I will let Him reveal to others what I cannot. I do battle feeling in the dark with God’s will for my life. I know in my heart I have no right to feel this way. I know in my heart that He will reveal what I need to know and keep from me what I do not need to know.
On Easter as I was walking into Southland my mind started to wander. I thought about if all had gone as planned, if things had happened as I had imagined, if life was following the course that seemed like such the right next step for my life, that I would not be walking into Southland but instead I would be in a Church in Newcastle in this moment. I thought about my relationship with God and I in nature I thought about how if I was there instead of here would I have grown in my faith more, would I in term feel closer to Him. Would I be using my time more wisely, would I have fewer distractions? Would my love for Him be greater? I knew this was a dangerous line of thought so I started to reflect on truth.
I was immediately filled with the truth that I know in my head and have believed and felt with my heart, that God is readily available to us at all times wherever we are. I know his presence is not reliant on our circumstances. These thoughts ushered God and his word inside of me. He spoke so very clearly to me. He started focusing on how I communicate with Him. We have talked about this on many occasions but the thoughts He gave me were so fresh and rich. He flashed me back to a time in my life when I was learning to be more intimate with him during worship. In the past He has told me, “If anyone were to see you and the way you sing to me it should not ever seem impersonal”. I started thinking about how that is true of every part of our life. We should acknowledge Him in all things in our life and we should be constantly sending a message to others that our relationship with Him is personal. If I fail to acknowledge Him in life nor will He acknowledge me. No matter where I am or what I am doing I want people to know that God is never far from my thoughts.
In all things you are doing, work the best you can. Work as if you were doing it for the Lord, not for people. Colossians 3:23
The last couple days I feel like I am trying to catch up. So much is happening in my life and the people around me. . I want to be able to share how I see Him going before me and remember and cherish every good thing He is doing. I can feel myself picking up the pace. I know you are beside me. Let me run the race as if I am running to win.
And I do all things for the sake of the gospel, that I may become a fellow partaker of it. Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win. And everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I buffet my body and make it my slave, lest possibly, after I have preached to others, I myself should be disqualified. 1 Corinthians 9:23-27
On Easter as I was walking into Southland my mind started to wander. I thought about if all had gone as planned, if things had happened as I had imagined, if life was following the course that seemed like such the right next step for my life, that I would not be walking into Southland but instead I would be in a Church in Newcastle in this moment. I thought about my relationship with God and I in nature I thought about how if I was there instead of here would I have grown in my faith more, would I in term feel closer to Him. Would I be using my time more wisely, would I have fewer distractions? Would my love for Him be greater? I knew this was a dangerous line of thought so I started to reflect on truth.
I was immediately filled with the truth that I know in my head and have believed and felt with my heart, that God is readily available to us at all times wherever we are. I know his presence is not reliant on our circumstances. These thoughts ushered God and his word inside of me. He spoke so very clearly to me. He started focusing on how I communicate with Him. We have talked about this on many occasions but the thoughts He gave me were so fresh and rich. He flashed me back to a time in my life when I was learning to be more intimate with him during worship. In the past He has told me, “If anyone were to see you and the way you sing to me it should not ever seem impersonal”. I started thinking about how that is true of every part of our life. We should acknowledge Him in all things in our life and we should be constantly sending a message to others that our relationship with Him is personal. If I fail to acknowledge Him in life nor will He acknowledge me. No matter where I am or what I am doing I want people to know that God is never far from my thoughts.
In all things you are doing, work the best you can. Work as if you were doing it for the Lord, not for people. Colossians 3:23
The last couple days I feel like I am trying to catch up. So much is happening in my life and the people around me. . I want to be able to share how I see Him going before me and remember and cherish every good thing He is doing. I can feel myself picking up the pace. I know you are beside me. Let me run the race as if I am running to win.
And I do all things for the sake of the gospel, that I may become a fellow partaker of it. Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may win. And everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I buffet my body and make it my slave, lest possibly, after I have preached to others, I myself should be disqualified. 1 Corinthians 9:23-27
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